I was once best friend to an Amish girl who’d been killed in a fire by her psycho father. I miss her. She got left behind at 1916 S Madison in Wichita, Kansas with the father who terrified her. I want that house back. I want her back.
I give my loyalty to everyone I meet. That, in and of itself, might be called bravery. But I do it out of unchosen love. I don’t choose it. It chooses me. Every moment of every day of my life has been self-sacrificial. But love, love I have never received.
It gives me great pain now. I used to be fine with it, even proud of it. I was only to happy to as a small child. I mean small, as in I can remember being like this as young as three.
It started to bother me some in my teens and a little more in my twenties. But I am now 47 and have never been loved not even appreciated.
I cry every day.
I hate when I hear people say pain makes you stronger. It doesn’t. It only makes you aware of your strength. But it eventually tears you down, makes you weak. I started life so very strong. Now I am so weak.
Who could love the mess I have become? Hopefully noone cause I never want to see another person as long as I live and I hope that won’t have to be much longer.
Loyalty and devotion lead to bravery. Bravery leads to the spirit of self-sacrifice. The spirit of self sacrifice creates trust in the power of love.
I am hereby ordering you,
Jeffrey Michael Patton
SW Beverly Court
to cease all communications to and about me, which constitute stalking and libel as of 06/18/2017. This has been an ongoing issue for over one year.
You are also to stop hacking my Internet accounts, remove all spy equipment and take down all plagiarized material.
Failure to do so will result in court order and potentially prosecution.
The deep end has a
recurring occurrence kick
and does not carry
much by way of fact
on it’s back as it would weigh
the speeding torpedo doooowwwwnnn.
This old blog was inspired by muppets
Back then I could drink a 400 pound Irishman under the table and would be dead by now if I hadn’t quit srinking.
hate black beans. They are crunchy and pollute good mexican dishes.
I hate mexicans. They suck up all the food stamps and all they buy with them are nachos and refried “beans”. I’m not sure those things qualify to be called beans.
I hate jews. They empty out all the sales racks and leave poor white folk with nuthin.
I hate Chinese people. There are just to many of them and they all think just alike, above my head.
I hate the Japanese. They sell all the cars and put white people out of work.
I hate black people. They drive to slow; except for the ones that drive to fast.
I hate Germans. They’re mouthy.
I hate the Irish. They make MY drinking habit look like child’s play.
I hate Indians. No, not Native American Indians. I am one. Pottawatomie.
I hate Apaches and Comanchees.
I hate gay people. They’re way funnier than I me.
I especially late lesbians. They cut their hair funny.
I hate heroine addicts. They get all the good methadone and leave me nuthin but pot.
I hate pot smokers. They think they’re so smart, but they’re really just stupid people with large vocabularies.
I hate Republicans. They like to start wars and kill people I hate causing the unnecessary deaths of numerous Americans I would probably hate if I ever met them.
I hate Democrats. They mostly sound like potheads, stupid people with large vocabularies, peace and love and shut the fukk up.
I am French, Dutch, Irish, English, Pottawatomie and Cherokee and yes, as a matter of fact, I did steal my own land. I’m a rat bastard that way. I also raped my peoples’ women. I owe me big time. But I hate me to much to pay up.
And I hate you too. You’re absurd and I detest sharing oxygen with you.
DISCLAIMER: THIS VIDEO STOLEN FROM A FELLOW BLOGGER WHO DIDN’T HAVE TO ADD A DISCLAIMER FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND THAT HE DOES NOT AGREE BUT DOES AND UNDERSTANDS COMPLETELY THAT HATE IS A FOUR-LETTER WORD, AS DO I AND THE LAWYERS I DID NOT HIRE TO THROW TOGETHER THIS DISCLAIMER AS IT WOULD BE UNNECESSARY FOR ME TO PAY THEIR HIGH FEES WHEN I’M SMARTER THAN ALL LAWYERS, WHICH IS WHY NONE OF THEM WILL HIRE ME AND I HAVE TO SEEK A NEW PROFESSSION SO I SEEK SUCH IN THE MEDICAL FIELD CAUSE I KNOW I CAN OUTSMART ANY DOCTOR BECAUSE THEY HAVE PRESCRIPTION PADS AND ARE SO STRUNG OUT ON XANAX THAT THEY WILL NOT PRESCRIBE ANY TO THEIR PATIENTS OUT OF FEAR THE PHARMACIES WILL RUN OUT OF XANAX AND NOT BE ABLE TO FILL THEIR PRESCRIPTIONS BUT WILL OVERDRUG CHILDREN WITH RITALIN CAUSE, WHAT THE HELL, CHILDREN MAKE GOOD MONEY FOR THEIR FAMILIES BY SELLING SAID RITALIN TO GROWN UPS WHO CANNOT BE XANAX OR METHADONE ADDICTS BECAUSE OF THE DOCTORS AND HEROINE ADDICTS WHO INSIST ON HOGGING IT ALL AND NOT SHARING EVEN THOUGH THEY ALL SUPPOSEDLY LEARNED IN KINDERGARTEN THAT THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO SHARE BUT DON’T CARE BECAUSE THEIR KINDERGARTEN TEACHERS DID NOT SHARE THEIR RUM AND MARLBOROS WITH THEM AND THEY HAD TO WAIT TILL GRADE SCHOOL TO GET RUM AND MARLBOROS FROM THEIR PEERS AND SEX FROM THEIR TEACHERS WHO WOULD NOT HAVE AIDS IF THEY WERE NOT GAY AND I DON’T REALLY HATE ANYONE; HOWEVER I DO HAVE A STRONG OPINION ABOUT IGNORANCE WHICH IS, BY THE WAY, AGAINST THE LAW UNLESS YOU ARE A RUTHLESS POWER-HAPPY LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICER. I AM A CHRISTIAN WHO LOVES EVERYONE WHETHER I LIKE THEM OR NOT SO EVERYTHING SAID BEFORE THIS SENTENCE IS A LOAD OF FICTIONAL BULLCACA WITH A WHOLE LOTTA TYPOS AND I DON’T GIVE A RED HOT GOLLY DERN.
old blog, circa 2007(8)
I’ve always hated repeating myself
skin does not fit
live in a slum
can’t do anything right
bite nails to make it better
take to much pride
to good for this
to bad for that
you cannot afford me
not a golddigger
not a whore
not a nazi
not a racist
just me as always
but will no longer be
alone in a shell
but the ocean does not sing
american over twenty-one
albeit not free
you still can’t afford me
nor can I, breathe
told you before
just one last time say
not high maintenance
not available to you
not available to me
If you want to talk to or about me, be respectful. If not, you’ll hear about it. That goes for everybody cause I’m not going to keep explaining if you’re all going to keep thinking I’m dumb, needy or not holding back what I really want to say.
Wow, what does it cost to get rid of a headache and not just put the nerve synapses out of your misery for 4 hours? $100
This is not a price we came to based on a group of folk that aren’t you. This is your own doing. As far as you’re being blind, see a doctor. For the dishonesty, eh, you and your listeners seem to enjoy that so carry on.
But you’ll have to carry on without me cause I got self-respect. Sure, self-respect causes a lot of eye-rolls from my peers, but I’m grown and I don’t give a shit. If I do, you’ll know cause you’ll see my eyes rolling back.
I’m guessing you know this is the best chance you’ve got of seeing my eyes roll back so keep trying. And for the low low price of $5.99, I’ll throw in mouth-wide-open. Price is negotiable on an “Oh God”.
Now let’s see the negative attention I get from friends that are not yours…..
the nothing I’ve become
is coming undone
the anti-me has won
God, carry me home
once I was one of them
the angels that you send
but now I’m just a wretch
with no purpose left
drowning in my blues
I commit myself to you
devil come take my pride
everything else has died
I musn’t ever
forget the way
he made me
feel like I was
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